Divided Loyalty

"Your companions are like buttons on an elevator - they either bring you up or bring you down."

I really like that quote cause it's really true.

Recap from Thursday. Fail SF rendezvous

Woke up early that morning. Headed out to Mountain View for school. Flower Project was pretty fun.

Collected 30 flowers. i need 15 more. After it hit 11:15 i decided to call it quits and head home. Headed home then to SF.

Pretty wack really cause of the misunderstanding. Forgive & forget. Chill really, tested some shots inside the mall & around

downtown. Read some interesting things in Borders though, & i think i'll consider reading as a hobby now, i fell in love with it again.

Headed home after 5 hours in borders & just chilled at home.

Friday 4/24/09 the BBQ

Early morning again. Left the house around 11 & took the 11 30 train to mtn view. Took the VTA to Great Mall, took the 71 to Eastridge & then

the 39 to EVHS (Evergreen high school). Went all the way from home to visit Jansen, ha it was pretty cool, & just chilled, met Vy & Catherine, & some other people i forgot. We talked hella shit about ratface & wanted to kick his ass. Ha. Jansen's  mom picked us up & we rendezvoused with erika in the van. Headed

to Jansen's home, ate chicken & some fried chicken. Left for Jansen's Ortho appointment, hella quick. "What color?' "Teal"  We then dropped off

Erika at her house & then finally arrived at Jonathan's. No need to name all of em but it was the usual i saw at the Barbeque, chilled with Eric, Jimmy, & Alex though & taught me a few things about a fixie. Honestly my first time riding a fixie my size, i learned how to skid & sit skid all on the first day. Later on Jimmy & I went to pick up Kenny at Golfland, headed back, blah blah blah, just chillin and shit, then we Andrew had to leave so we did a little photoshoot at a park near Jon's. Went back & did a small break sesh. Fail at the sleepover. My Dad picked me up & everything was all good. Hyped.

Saturday : Fixie Building

Slept at 12 & woke up at 7 and couldn't sleep. Got ready around 9 ish & left the house around 9 30 to be at the mall around 10, went to borders to kill some time to wait for Sean, met at Rasputen around 11 & went to Performance first. Picked up the starbolt tool, spacers, & my front tire. Then headed to freewheel to exchange my cog & pick up some lube & rim tape. Then headed to Bike rev to pick up toshi straps & plastic toeclips, then my cap for the fork. Sean had to stop by Tim's to drop off the frame & such, we decided to eat but stopped by another freewheel to get the cups in for Tim's Frame. Headed to this Cafe, forgot the name but Tim's bro, treated me out, thanks bro. 3 pancakes, hashbrown, & a sausage, yum. Then headed out to OSH to buy some steel wool & brushes to paint the frame. Back to my house. Stripped, Rinsed, stripped, etc, primed, coated, painted, sandpapered. Then built. Bike was done around 9 & we wanted to eat Phu but my parents wouldn't let me go out, whatever really. Night time rides for the win.

check cirocksf.blogspot.com for the pictures of the process.

Sunday. SkatexBike Sesh.

Another early morning, i hate this cold weather really. Vacuummed the house & washed the clothes before i left around 12. Parents wouldnt let me 

leave without a helmet, lights, & a lock, so we bought everything. Pretty happy really. Headed to Fernando & just practiced & just watched everyone play Skate. Jazer, James, Renjie, Gabe, Clinton, Shelbie, Jody, Kirk, Prince, Mikey, John, Anthony, Paulo, & John. Hella people. We then decided to leave 

to go head to Ben but 3 of all those people we didn't want them to tag along, so we made it seem like we're all heading out. Met near Ocean Grove and went down near Westlake. After at Ben, we decided to eat, Clinton, Shelbie, & I at 88 rice bowl. 4 spam wasubi's & a chocolate oreo smoothie. Met 3 new skaters, then shit started happening. When we arrived at Ben, a fast forward a bit but Shelbie & this girl got in a fight over John, who is Shelbie's ex. Popos came and everyone headed out, Renjie & i with John decided to go home, took the 120 to Daly City Bart & said our farewells there. Lonely night though. Thanks Catherine for keeping me company.

Today though

First day to school with the bike, pretty cool, have to wake up at 6 30 everyday now though. Today was damn pretty chill though. Lips hurt like fuck,

nothing new really except the sameold same old, 4 weeks till finals. FUCK. Time to just fucking get off my lazy ass.

My lips hurt like no other, & i know the only thing will heal this is vaseline

which i don't have, almost never have it & i know it's the only thing that'll work

i smile, but it hurts.

fail at no pictures cause i ran out of space on my flickr. sorry yo. I'll put em up after this weekend.

Golden type smile

Recap from Thursday till Today.

just cause i didnt upload pictures until today.

Thursday: School, Photoshoot w/ SoulDriven.

Friday: School, skipped 9th period to go visit MHS. Chilled there for a while.

Took the bus with Erika and Jansen to go to Erika's then head to G mall. Walked around

and tried seeing who could get the most "looks". Movies afterward with other MHS heads, but

was cut short cause of an exploded light which caused a small fire? or something like that. Runined

night and just chilled inside, gay mall i swear. Then headed over Jansens. Cooked spam masubi and 

made this frickin bomb ass oyster sauce. if i remember the ingredients were. 1/16 slice of an onion diced, a full stem of

rosemary smashed, 1/2 lemon squeezed, 2 tablespoons of brown sugar, and i forgot the name of the sauce we used.

After eating spam masubi and admiring Jansen's Dad's blueberry crumble, we dropped off Erika, then once we came 

back to Jansens, i knocked out like FASHO. like FASHOFASHO, damn KO.

Saturday: Erika came in the morning, chilled, went to this town square in Evergreen, pretty cool. Took pictures, the regular

shii, eat, bboy, then i talked to some dudes with fixies. Pretty cool. Headed back to Jansens, took a damn long ass nap. Erika&Jansen

got in a fight when i was sleeping and they made up. 3 hour nap i believe? then we headed to Richards for a small game get together.

Pretty cool, bboy sesh, for a bit. Then owned in Halo, got fat, vented out to Catap & Jansen. Dad got pissed, but the bro's calmed him down.

Came home and chilled.

Sunday: All i remember is doing chores. having a bboy sesh. Then kicking it with Sean at downtown Milbrae. Sweet Dessert Place. Pretty cool.

stopped by Milbrae park to chill with Rene. Met some new people. Ended my day by going home. Random phone call though.

Monday: OMG!!!!!!! STRESS FUCKING DAMN FREE. Morning was pretty long but it was worth it really. That's Life yano? hahhaha. Stopped by school

to get shoes in my locker, chilled for 4th period watching the last Sex talk video. "Karl you got better!" Left, practically ditched school, did a meetup all the way in Union City, Fremont. Damn far yo, especially how slow the BART seemed to go. Can't wait till i get my license in December & my car. After the meetup, went down to Fernando, Serramonte, in Daly City. Chilled at the school with Clinton, Paulo, Gabe, John, and Jody. After that we headed to Del Ray to go to a bboy sesh. Met Kirk & David and gonna be seshing with them every monday now. Mom picked me up and got ready for school.

Tuesday: School was damn fun, Geo was gay -.- FUCK Woodruff, seriously. Whateva whateva, skipped on 8th & 9th period, went to 24th & mission after coming from Mountain View. walked to 21st and Valencia to go meetup with Sean, met Henry there also. Bought some parts for my bike. Headed out to 

chill with Clinton and them again. Rode around on Alfred's bike. Played basketball with Prince, Paulo, Gabe, some random guy, and yea. Then Paulo & I left around 8 20 to take the bus, said our goodbyes and i headed to Serramonte to get some Jamba Juice. Dad picked me up, did some homework, fixed up my room, lost my allen wrench, & another random call.

Wednesday: Woke up at 9 30, got ready for the Giant's Padre's game. Headed out around 11, ate the best steak before i left. Met up with Troy & Jeremy at

AT&T park, then headed inside to get a free bag! haha. Pike. Game was wack though! it was hot but it like breezed here & there which was satisfying, then the game lasted for like 10 innings, OMG, the Giants got one homerun at the last inning & won. Pretty damn epic and was the only exciting part of the game, i just listened and chilled to my music the whole time. & my attempt to get on the screen was a fail. I was on it though! but wasnt able to do what i wanted to do. After the game we were gonna head out but once we were walking to the shade, Jeremy got pooped on by a seagull!!!! hahahahhahahah. Epic. After that, headed to the train station, said my goodbyes and walked down 4th street. Never knew Chrome was on that street. Continued walking to Bloomingdales. Walked around and tried to read at Borders but couldnt. Spotted Jarrell and im thinking if i should go to this teen event on my birthday. Fail to kick it with Clinton & Andrew. Went from the usual. Starting inside bloomingdales, then vans, forever 21, urban outfitters, Barneys New York, & decided to call it quits and head home. Saw an old brother and spotted him some change. Took BART home and got some In&Out. Now i'm home.

Flower project tomorrow. Time to sell more shoes. Beautiful weather lately! Love seeing cuties wear short shorts, dresses, & skirts. Really is summer time.

Saw so many cuties lately, like no lie, and is it me, or is when we stopped talking, and she started to make contact again, these girls started to appear out of no where. Like zayumm, i got like 6 already. crazy. & trust me it's not in that way, nothing like that.

& I'm sorry for the crappy pictures, i need to find my inspiration for photography right now, i'm on a small break once i get my bike finished.

& i'm seriously just messing around & not being serious about it. LMFAO

Secrets

so why is it, of all nights, this night. i'm sorry, what you told me about those other guys  didn't phase me at all

maybe it's just cause i got over it. It's not really bothering me, and funny how i poured out

with not an extreme amount of hesitance. Bleh, im sorry if i disappointed you. I'm not like that,

i know that, i promised myself that. & i'm true to my word. All i have to say that it was nice hearing your voice.

7 and a half more hours. Pray for me.

PDA

hahha, this was entertaining.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bwyI2WA-65w&feature=channel_page

damn cute.

Nothing really special to mention today except the photoshoot. Hopefully tomorrow i can buy some parts & get rid of all 

my damn shoes.

Need to fix my damn camera -.-

gahh stupid ass battery grip!

i'll put pictures up once im done editing. having to much fun dancing. 

tumblr yo!

Just for the Hell of it.

Girl, i miss you.

hold up though. i forgot, who are you?

Goodnight everyone.

These dreams are confusing me.

& one more thing. On the road of DJV. tumbling.

Internal Speech

DONT READ THE PARAGRAPHS BETWEEN THIS SENTENCE AND THE LINE

RANDOM SHIT.

More of a mental vent. The first thing you look at in or on a person, is something you usually want. I'm right yea?

Not unless your totally judging the person. 

"God made the human body so he or she can't pat himself on the back and can not easily kick themselves."

Do any of you readers understand that? Pride and self put down. You cannot look down at someone, and

still look up at God. It's whatever if you don't believe in God. Either because you were raised that way

or lost the belief cause he didn't measure up to you. So many branches to break off, but where to start?

When all hell breaks lose. Say a problem comes up. Damn, say your the parents of the Santa Clara girl 

that got killed and got stuff in a suitcase. Where was God for them? & damn, say that your best friend & your brother

who happens to be her boyfriend die in a accident cause a drunk driver ran into them head on. Where was

God for you? Let's say that you were in the ministry for 20 years, you finally get married, you have a kid, he's born

with down syndrome. Where was God for this couple? How would you feel about these situations if you 

went through them? Mad, sad, depressed, aggravated? Blame God, fine. Solves everything right? DAMN STRAIGHT NO.

Everything happens for a reason. To make this short, It's your decision to choose the way to see your problems. Your troubles in life

is the way we choose to see them , your own attitude, & how you face them. Heard a story on Monday. A man was in a church service.

He notices that the man's children next to him are running all over the place, pretending the church is zoo. He's angry, he's aggravated, he's thinking

"damn this guy doesn't know how to take care of his damn children." He doesn't want to be rude, but as nicely as possible he asks the man,

"Don't you think your kids are a bit troubling, rowdy, noisy, & tribulating during a church service?" The man responds. "Yes i agree that they are

a bit hard to handle." 

"Why don't you tell them to settle down?"

tears from the mans eyes start to appear, "I don't know what to tell them, they just saw there mother die just yesterday in the hospital, i don't

even know what to do myself."

Am i getting to you? This man, who was just angry a few seconds ago becomes empathetic, sympathetic, & understanding.

"Don't worry brother, you'll get through this."

Psalm 77. Same situation from verse 1 to verse 15

& also in Job! everyone knows the story of Job. He loses his house, his property, his money, all of his kids, his servants, his wife turns away from him,

& he gets an incurable disease. & During that whole time, what did he do? He praised the Lord for being merciful & being thankful he wasn't dead yet.

He was faithful till the end. & you know what happened? He regains twice his  property. He regains a mansion. He becomes the richest man in the nation.

He has the most beautiful daughters in the world. 

God makes the worst of things, and turns it into something better. Stop trippin if he doesnt measure up to you. Pray, stay faithful, & never say there is no hope.

& this is personally for people who are just dicks. Stop judging, stop labeling. It's sad how one person can affect another person, and that person that actually listens to those words suddenly gives up. Just a few words from trillions. That person coulda been something big, you brought all those dreams burning down. Does it make you feel guilty that you can make someone become suicidal? & you could be their murderer? Does that make you feel guilty, at all? If not, your damn heartless. & i hope if you don't feel guilty for making fun of someone, i hope my God brings the worst for you for your wrong doing.

Karma is a bitch yea? you gotta understand whenever you say karma your just saying another word for God. Because karma was a practice in Hinduism & Buddhism. Everything just relates to one supreme being. Just think about it.

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ABOUT MY DAY THOUGH!

A bit disappointed this morning, but naw didn't bring me down. You just don't meet my standards girl.

Service in chapel today was damn hilarious but very touching. School was pretty fun today though. Sneaked out

during Geo & did some photo takes. People shouldnt touch my camera, they just break it -.-

Shipped out the last hat i was selling, nice. Wore a different hat today. Sex talk again in health. Funny how

Jenny & I are so close now, hahahah them SD chicks. "No matter how hard life gets it does not say the final word for your destiny."

My camera has some nice ass colored tones, be lovin it. More snapshots to show today though.  Senior Year is gonna be my prime.

I'm telling you for the last time. Just wait for me.

Playa playa! You cupcake but no feeling!

Love Bomb.

Pictures from yesterday & today.

No serious pictures. Just messing around with tones. No PS, please, i dont use that shit.

Double jointed-ness, & more practices in breaking. Same old sam old. & pikes are for Erika. Love you sis Do you guys get bored of my shit?

Happy Easter

PICTURE CAUTION! GET READY TO SEE HELLA PICTURES OF GABE & RENJIE

Beautiful Sunday. Spent it home cleaning the house & just chillin on xbl.

Rnadom Calls & Texts though. Seriously, i didn't do shit so please don't blame me.

You & your girl just need to work it out, one thing a relationship should always remember.

DON'T LET ANYONE GET IN BETWEEN.

"So i came across your jacket. I like it, it's cute"

Nothing really happened today. Was suppose to do a photoshoot for Uly & Ray for their

graduation reception picture prior to their invitations. Sorry guys!

I'm debating if i should cut my San Diego trip later to make it to their party. I'll be leaving June15 then.

If i do that, probably won't be able to visit SDSCPA since it is their last day. We'll see whatsup.

Recap on this past week starting from Wednesday.

Wednesday: School, watched Grease the Musical=vulgar, humor, sexual. Spilt juice on my camera -.-

GAH Jenny. Malfunctioned camera. Milk&Cookies + a hint of Coffee Shake

Thursday: School, downtown, went home, napped, meetup for my Send Helps in Redwood City, came back home

and chilled. NOTE: I DID NOT GO OUT THAT DAY EXCEPT FOR THE MEETUP. GET THAT DAMN STRAIGHT.

Friday: School, shipped out Jason's Vans & cashed out, headed home & then headed out to SF to meetup with Renjie.

Met him up in Starbucks and waited for Gabe. Why is it so fucking important to not take a picture in a store? Seriously.

I want to know, they don't tell you to delete it after they tell you that anyways. WTF is the point? Gabe came through.

Treated out Gabe to some Steak Escape & order a coffee shake from Haagen Daz. Walked to Huf. It was about 8 30 when we

got there. Chilled with them until around 9 45. Before i head out, we went to a liquor store and i bought them some Doritos for

the night's campout to this limited 75 pieces in the world Classic Logo Huf Hat. Walking back to Powell, was the most nostalgic

walk i had 0.o. Reminisced, gave a bum 3 dollars. Is there another word for bum, that's not trying to insult them? Headed home,

late night & didn't sleep till 12.

Saturday: Woke up at 6, fell a sleep, woke up at 8. Decided to get ready to go meetup at Renjie & Gabe at Huf. Didn't leave till fucking 9 15 cause

my dad held me up. Got at Huf around 10. Took some pictures, met some new people. One cute chick, pretty old, boyfriend was straight up ughs. 

No homo. Waited till 11, till Huf opened. J Billion appeared. Damn sick artist, seriously, love his music. No homo again. 2 at a time could only come in.

I was the 3rd set, was suppose to be the 2nd, but that faggot & his girl had to cut -.-. Karma since i cutted the whole line, but whatever in the end i got my hat.

Parted our fairwells to that Van's Worker and the guys next to us who lined up. Headed back to the mall to eat. Stopped by Coldstone and ordered that

Milk&Cookies Coffee shake combo. Then walked back to the mall to eat Panda Express. We ate & then we took Bart back home, Renjie stopped at Balboa for his girl, Gabe at Colma for home, and Me at SSF to walk to church. Let's count, it's been a good over the month since i've been to church. Satan has

taken over the church, hoped you know. After church, parents picked me up & we headed to Pacifica for this party at a Beach house, pretty damn nice.

Homebound after a good enough hours there. Got home roughly around 9 ish & tried to sleep but then weird ass shit kept happening. I hate the confusion

that happens when people have the same name as you. smh. Good talk with Erika.

 Jansen & Erika, i love you both.

Pictures from the past days. None of my feelings were posted in this blog. Refer to my tumblr. if you know it >:)

Oh & i finally washed my nudies!! take a look.

Start : 10/26/08

End: 4/11/09

3 soaks in the middle of the whole process. 1 cold, 2 hot

ended it early cause i dont want the wash to weaken the cotton threads that much since i need time

to save up money for a new pair of jeans. APCs & Iron Hearts here i come!