it's around 1:10 in the morning right now. It amazes me how I still get surprised even though I know something is gonna happen. Like I knew Deaj was tired & that meant less talking but that surprised me how i won't be talking to her tonight. & I'm still surprised! Also how not hearing her voice just for one night just makes it bearable but unbearable to handle at the exact same time. Maybe Angela was right, I've been in withdrawal in this time her cousins have visited. I'm so used to talking to Deaj everyday it became my daily routine to at least put Deaj in half of my day and not talking to her like I'm used to just made me temporarily mentally insane. And how jealous I was of her and her cousins how they got to hang together and how she beat me to some gauges -.- . Throughout these few days it took me back when Mr.Guerroro told us about Men & their desire to be with a Women. He talked about how insane a man will become if you left him alone with a women. He clearly stated how men have that natural desire to be with a women. They won't be themselves with out them. This is when a couple breaks up, the rift created between that relationship starts bothering the individual until it's unbearable to bear. That's where it leads to many things like suicide but I won't go to that subject right now. But when thinking about that I then I thought about my position with Deaj. I do need her. It's not out of vague stupidity but in all honesty & love. I'm not myself without her.

That's my reality

Shit Happens

Summer is almost half way through. I still haven't gone to SD to visit Deaj. I'm wondering When will I? Right now i don't really give a shit. She's just so UGHH. i was in my living room bonding with my bro & eating. Last time i talked to Deaj on the phone was around 5 o'clock, last time i checked my phone was at 6:30 P.M. i see she has called me 13 times in that span of an hour & a half. She get's pissed because i didn't answer the phone when i clearly didn't know she called me when it was on vibrate and in my room. Sometimes she just so...

The Bitch in You

by Common

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