Not knowing where to go, but simply wait for their destination."
I was thinking about that quote i made up there this whole day. I've been getting
different advices, ideas, etc on my current situation. Optimism or Pessimism is
obviously the battle right now.
& a FYI, i'm sorry if forgot your name, they didn't stick in my mind because i was unable to think today..
i apologize.
To recap on today, i took the train all the way to mountain view and met up with Larry & Fernando
to drive me to Sushi85. PRETTY DAMN ASS GOOD SUSHI. The best ever OMG! well imma stop
having orgasmic memories over sushi. So gay that i took like sips of smirnoff & jarritos mixed together,
so nasty dude, Daniel why didn't you say anything man!?
Heading out we all went to Great Mall to meet up with Michelle & some MHS kids. I found myself
in the trunk in Javi's car. It was pretty chill, i actually slept, so i know how it feels to get kidnapped
& be put back into someone's trunk now, i wonder what they complain about anyway...
So once arriving at Great Mall, i had to take a really long ass piss. All the water from flushing down
the sushi & aftertaste of smirnoff got me that moment. We strolled around, doing nothing & just talking.
I found myself talking to Nathan about the situation with Deaj, It mixed with what i was thinking already.
Threw me off for the rest of the time until we met up with Michelle & her friends. I'm horrible with names & all i remember
is Angelica, Matt, & Ashley, i remember the other 2 were Chris...something. HA! Pretty chill people. So once Daniel, Hiro, & Aram
left, i decided to chill with Michelle & em. I talked to Michelle about it while we were walking. Helped me out
by listening to me vent. We walked to the foodcourt & sat down & met up with 3 guys that i saw going home on the VTA.
What a coincidence. Anyway, we just chilled & Matt & them decided to draw random pictures, ohmy at the penises.
Matt then like helped me calm down about it after lecturing me a bit of his past relationship. OH & congrats Celeste on
getting that job! Jonathan & Daniel then came, then the part for me to go home became complicated since
they wanted me to watch a movie with them, but i rejected the offer. sorry guys, thanksgiving with my
family was more important in my mind. Ashley came out of no where and met her. We decided to walk around again
and it seemed like a long ass walk, & i guess Michelle & em tried cheering me up or talking to me or something like
that, greatly appreciate it you guys, i know it seemed like i wasn't interested or in the mood, i was just
bleh at the moment, it helped a lot though. I got really tired all of sudden & i told em i wanted to
just sit down & we did, we chilled and talked about whatever yano. I wasn't really myself today,
i apologize about it, & Matt just told me it was normal, & i guess it is. After all the fun getting that bear beanie
& talking about my shii & to random shii everyone slowly began to leave. Once Ashley, Michelle, & Matt left, last
minute decision to take VTA home, first time to take it by myself & i made it to Mtn View without any messups!
Now i'm at home blogging about this.
I really seem to have some good friends & the people i met today were really caring &
chill, hard to come by people like that. So the whole hour & 30 minute ride home, i realized
that i'm being affected so much. I bring my camera everywhere & can't seem to get a good shot anymore
for some apparent reason. I find myself fidgeting a lot & unable to think clearly. I guess i'm done.
Help me yea? please...i'm losing it...
plus i'm a guy i'm not suppose to be built for these emotional breakdowns. yano?
ADDED PART
That hurts, that really does. I'm keeping my mind open, my ears listening, my eyes seeing, my mouth closed, & my heart to God.
Hopefully i'll find somebody stress relieving & comforting again...
"God can you whisper in her ear, anytime when she's lying on her bed, can you tell her everything i said?"
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