Friday, April 3, 2009

I Totally Fucked up

The conversation never took place.
We can't develop a relationship if your not truly honest with me
I'll still look at you as the same Nikolai i know, the wonderful kid i know.
The kid that has a good attitude, a special character, and a happy person.
Kid you made the biggest mistake of your life, & i'm gonna help you get your life
back on the right track.

He asked 2 questions that stood out to me.
Howd you get caught? My back pack. Ahh so you left it? yes.
When has this been happening? Since the beginning of the relationship.
& when he asked, i couldn't help but cry..

I can't tell you what exactly happened, i can't tell anyone, i'm forced to not tell anyone.
Don't IM me asking what happened, i will ignore you. This is up just because i can't keep 
bottled up.

Just because, i can't direct this at all to you, i appreciate your troubles for trying to help me out.
The one i respect, & the one that i know that only cares for me.

& totally out of the subject,  I miss you girl.
but i ask myself, who is there to miss?
cause there is no girl at the moment 
i'm falling in love with what i think is perfect..
a girl that i will never have.

No feelings, none at all.

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