Butterflies

Everything went as planned. It was good seeing some old friends again today.

Gabe & Clinton. & i'm surprised how exact everything was today. I was getting

a bit worried i wouldn't make it to Milpitas by the 3 PM mark, i got there earlier like 2 30ish

& had time to get some in&out. It was fun seeing some YFC & milpitas people again,

seems like i haven't spent some quality time with those people. I'm glad i spent time with Jonathan & Daniel

today though, and i'm really looking forward to spend some quality time with you. I really need

to vent out right now, "the incident" kept coming up, i hate how people lie to get what they want. SMH

Fuck my life though, seriously. I hate how things just seem to crash down on me all of a sudden, no one to

run too & to just let everything out. My dad keeps threatening me about how i did "it" in the first place, it's heart-breaking,

to hear so much shit from one person, especially a person that you think that would love you no matter

what you did. It's beginning to show up that blood isn't thicker than water. What should i be expecting now? a more

limited teenage life? I hate this part of my life, shit sucks. FML

I realized, i don't even talk to girls anymore, or hang out with any. Don't get me wrong, i ain't gay for shit, it's just like

where'd they all go? I miss you though

To end this more optimistic, meetups went good, kick its were fun, atmosphere beautiful, & i'm excited for Friday.

My spring break sucks though, my house tomorrow? fasho.

I haven't seen so much butterflies in one day though. Crazy. I really miss having that feeling for a girl.

Every emotion just seemed to vanish..