Episode 4-Memories

Love is no distance baby.

Stupid shit yesterday, BIG ASS LESSON LEARNED. Greed ruins you.

God puts you in a path where he thinks you'll do best in. That path

is carved in for you for him to know, but all you know that it's a surprise.

There's a reason for everything, and i believe thats why i've been making

the worst of mistakes these days. It's not because of you, or the lack

of friends, or the influences, it's me, the lack of a relationship with God.

I need Him, and i notice that now, i don't need anything else, cause that's not what interests me.

I'm helping myself out first before i find someone for my own joy, and maybe

i can help them find a relationship that i'm trying to find. a relationship wrapped in God.

So i've made some pacts with myself.

-No girlfriend till i graduate

-Stop all the bad habits

-Attend church & YFC as much as possible

-Go to as much events dealing with God as much as possible, if i can.

-Get all my wants, A fixie & my lens & flash.

& with that, i'll focus on my priorities. Consequence in the moment, Change in the process.

& i promise i'll change for myself & for those who i affect around me. 

but maybe i might need some help to inspire me to start doing all of this.

A little forced push yea?

God's Grace, saved twice. You know those dreams that everybody has, and im referring to those who do believe in God,

those moments people wish they had so they can completely turn to God. I've had those moments.

Yesterday.

"Don't let your memories ruin you, but don't ruin your memories."

The reason that i came back is because i couldn't let you go.

It's a lesson learned yesterday. I promise it's not something that'll

happen again. I'm not afraid anymore. I've noticed that im just going over something temporary.

In the end, everything is just gonna end up as i want it to be. I'll end up Happy.

Dear Lord,

thank you for everything.

but for right now, all i need is guidance, and i look upon you for it.

Give me wisdom for this moment of need,

Encouragement for this moment of helplessness.

That's all i ask.

Amen.