I'm living in a world that doesnt give a damn.
Long Day. I really cant say if it was good or not. Because of the things i did and what happened
kinda balanced things out yano? an equal amount of good things and the bad things just countered it.
The movie Uninvited sucked ass. In the end she was just brain washed and "living the story" the person who brain
washed her told her. Let's just say it was some confusing shit like My Bloody Valentine. COME ON NOW.
I watch the bad ass movies and i miss the good ass movies like Transformers & i liked watched that movie 2 years
after it came out. WTF yea? My trip to great mall wasnt as i expected. Was wanting to get those vans but i guess they ran
out of my size, damn it Daniel i swear we shoulda done it when we had the chance.
On the way home, i thought about why things happen and what the reason would be the outcome from it. I'll try and explain it as
simple and as much as i can but on the way home i met 2 new people. This girl named Amy & this guy named Matt. Matt i've seen
before since his job is actually to make balloons, like a clown i guess? ha, ive seen him on the train before and he's good, i'd call it art.
But it's weird how both of these people i just met today made me realize that as people we always ask "why didnt this happen?" and only say
that to think about what we really wanted to happen, and what woulda been a better decision for us to end of our day in such a better note.
We think about it so much that what wouldve happened if i was just a bit more friendly enough to ask a way to contact Amy or Matt? How
would that affect my life even more? Would i meet more people, somehow find a job, meet the love of my life? I mean what could have
happened if that happened? & if it did happened, in God's "Book of Life for Me" Is there different roads i could have taken and would it be
worse or good for me because of that one decision i made? I mean because of certain decisions ive made, both for the good or bad, i'm here
right now as who i am. Are there different roads for me to take as a person as time pasts by? As humans we try to do whats best for us or
whatever makes us happy. Maybe because of meeting these 2 new people i've learned to come to realization that i should be maybe one
more step ahead. It's always good to be ready. Things happen for a reason. But i'm still so damn curious, if things really happen for a reason
tell me why is that i find myself waiting. Just patiently waiting. Like today. I felt that i needed to be there today and i know why i was there
but what is to come out of it? Is it a sign? Why are you so cute? Am i to just find myself like this? I feel like i've never been happy,
Lord what are you waiting for? How is my life gonna be like? Is any good gonna come out of this? Damn it. All i want are some answers,
why cant i find them?
'My fears come in my dreams.
I think i'll be alright
I'm working so i wont try so hard
Someday, i won't waste any of my time
because it would be with you"
-Karl Orotea
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edit: i get grumpy when im sick, maybe i think over things to much, everyone has a mental disorder,mine just happens to be
looking everytime at a mirror when i pass one. Yoshido Kabyo Kabaishibibaishya is the name of a company, do you know
what they make?
Am I just stupid enough to wait or stupid enough to give up
Goodnight & Happy Sabbath
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