Cheers.

It's 12:30, and i have to wake up in 6 hours. Well imma talk about some things you wouldn't let me

talk about here. So i've been feeling pressured by friends to find somebody new to talk to. D.V. wants

me to frickin find a date so we can group date or something, but i don't know, like we said, when it comes to

another person, our minds somehow find it's way back on each other. & how at times we're just like Fuck you

and we either go to that person we have that attraction to, to get our minds of each other. I seriously can't

help but still get jealous about all of this, i don't tell you to stop but you keep talking knowing that i don't 

want to hear it but want to at the same time. Like your being fucked up but it's also my fault for being so curious. But i don't 

know, we're both different people, i like learning the truth,  & you assume it & don't want to hear it to protect

yourself from getting jealous. Seriously, what are your intentions for always talking about them? Do you

really like getting me jealous & pissing me off? It hurts, but you play it off so cool. Seriously, by talking

about me going to get mad at you in the nest 2 weeks, you did it. You caused it by your own doing. FUCK YOU. Why do you have to 

do that, i tried to be sympathetic and see if you really did, and if it was really worth my time. I can't just

help but think your trying to make this a game of jealousy. I don't want it to be like that, i really haven't been

trying to talk to anyone, i've been focusing on you because i can't break my promise. Why are you playing

games with my heart? But you contradict yourself, i'd be stupid to hook up with her, you'll be stupid to hook up with

him, it's not that same without you kinda thing. I really am being pulled two directions, i thought i'd learn the truth from you, your 

not even helping. I really doubt if it really was it. Show me it was & i'll stay to play this game your

setting up, but if it really wasn't, i was just wasting my time.

"God determines who walks into your life, but you determine who walks out and who you refuse to let go."

edit.

to bad i'm sooo attached to you that i'm willing to get hurt just for you..

no pain no gain. right?