To sum it up...

This morning when coming home was the worst. Dropped my camera, & everybody knows how careful & precious that is to me. Talked to Deaj, told me she doesn't want to go to the bay anymore cause i won't be hanging out with her because the plans i have doesn't fit her in, or something like that. I'm really sick of it, i could go ranting off on how i do stuff & you don't amplify them as much as i do to you. Just like this weekend on how i barely talked to you. I tried calling you but you always wanted me to call you when i wasn't busy, i wasn't busy all those times i called you, it was just loud in the background. ugh. whatever i really dont give a fuck anymore. Last night was bad enough.

"Do unto others as you want them to do unto you, no matter what they put you through, treat them as good as you want them to have treated you before."

Joshua told me i was tormenting when i was little & had A LOT of anger management issues. Still have those anger management issues because everybody pisses me off. He told me i used to go after this guy with a knife & torment him. He used to live with us when we were little, i don't even remember such a thing. It was so, WOW, i don't remember ever doing something like that, now i feel so guilty about how i was before and crazy i was back then. bleh.

I'm so seriously heartbroken.

Photography almost down the drain.

Relationship almost down the drain

Who i am right now is going down the drain.

This is my last post, & all my blogs are going to go in a ghost file in my computer and just be blogging in a word document. so this is now a photography blog like Jose's.