Phileo, Agape, Eros, Storge

It's been awhile

2009-12-06T23:04:00.000-08:00

I think I might start posting back on here again, well my personal stuff that is since my Tumblr has gone to much of a change.

Well school is tomorrow and I have to catch up on

Huck Finn Powerpoint
Pre-Cal Assignments
Am History MC Questions
English WKS
& My Updated Research Plan
the other half of my Research Paper

Tumblr

2009-09-22T21:37:00.001-07:00

karlnorotea.tumblr.com

should follow it. I happen to post more there, but i'll try to post here also, we'll see.

Ex-Lovers can never be friends. If they do so, it's either they still love each other or they never really loved each other at all.

2009-09-19T10:55:00.000-07:00

Inhale, Exhale

2009-09-12T23:27:00.000-07:00

definition of a rider and not one word can describe her

she makes pancakes the best

2009-09-10T23:49:00.001-07:00

I really like how i didnt get any credit for my own photo

2009-09-09T23:42:00.000-07:00

Old photo & i have to say it's my own personal favorite

My photo & the OG link

http://www.flickr.com/photos/flawlesseffect/3322024732/

http://justinesaidhi.tumblr.com/post/172441201

I'll start updating on my life again, i guess

2009-09-09T19:38:00.000-07:00

flickr.com/photos/flawlesseffect

I'm really limited with just having a 50mm, im about to buy a nikon adapter, and get a wide angled lens.

but school started and it's been hectic, pictures from Mexico, Backpacking, & first Varsity Tournament to MBA.

some epic stuff.

Expecting my fork & stout guard this friday, next week my bike will be finished! Community Service the week after, ohh boo.

Here are my favorite pictures from tournament, backpacking & Mexico/SD trip.

SD/LA/Mexico Trip

Backpacking 2009

Varsity MBA Tournament

more pictures at flickr.com/photos/flawlesseffect

2009-08-21T20:57:00.001-07:00

I'm taking it all home while your still on first base so get the fuck out

Conclusion

2009-08-19T01:26:00.000-07:00

I gave her my jerk smirk, she smiled back, the girl shined so hard it hurt, but it was the breath of her skirt, so the rest of her body was a dope piece of work.

Ain't That Somethin?

2009-08-16T11:42:00.001-07:00

2009-08-15T17:34:00.001-07:00

I love a girl that takes the beauty from a thrift store. That's my kind of girl. & I'll never call you my bitch or my boo because there's so much more in a name and so much more in you.

If a relationship is an effort, I will match your work

2009-08-15T01:25:00.000-07:00

I wanna be the one to make you happiest, and the one that hurts you the most

They say the end is near, all that's important is that we're close

..to the most high

Regardless of what happens, on Him let's rely.

2009-08-10T19:10:00.001-07:00

Omg you just made me feel better, thanks though, because I know I won

New Pictures

2009-08-09T22:24:00.000-07:00

at Gnarcotix.com, i'm the one who usually posts there so yea.

check the pictures out yo!

Off at night when your living it up, and I'm off to sleep.

2009-08-04T01:50:00.000-07:00

When will these girls understand that partying is not the theme of life.

2009-08-03T23:13:00.000-07:00

For every negative thing said of a person, there are three positive things that counteract it.

2009-08-02T23:58:00.000-07:00

2009-08-01T13:12:00.001-07:00

Can't say shit now, can you.

Pull me from the darkness and into the light.

2009-07-31T13:19:00.001-07:00

Oh Lord have mercy on me, the souls of my feet are worn, what is my destiny

2009-07-31T13:15:00.001-07:00

No matter what, you cant avoid it, it will always be there

2009-07-31T02:17:00.001-07:00

I really can't get you off my mind

2009-07-29T10:36:00.001-07:00

It's damn ironic how people say life is like a rollercoaster, it has it's ups and downs, funny thing is that going down on a rollercoaster is the funnest part of the ride.

Use somebody

2009-07-28T23:37:00.000-07:00

Hold up, wait a minute, this is to catch your attention,

because you know i can use somebody, someone like you,

And all you know and how you speak

Countless lovers undercover of the street

You know that i can use somebody, someone like you.

Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice,

I hope it's gonna make you notice,

someone like me.

To many worries in my head today,

2009-07-28T11:41:00.001-07:00

so I'm gonna set them on the table like cards and deal with them tomorrow.

This girl

2009-07-27T20:38:00.001-07:00

Is making me realize how stupid I acted.

2009-07-26T17:00:00.001-07:00

I didn't make contact to tell you I still hated you, I was just wondering how've you been.

2009-07-25T23:51:00.001-07:00

All my friends make fun of me for drinking hot chocolate, I make fun of all my friends for drinking alcohol. In the end, I'm the one with the sober mind. Fucking dipshits

2009-07-25T19:15:00.001-07:00

Everything is going to the beat, check it out.

Canon

2009-07-23T15:43:00.001-07:00

is a bitch for not being able to fix my lens.

i got a letter saying my 135mmL is Economically Beyond Repair.

WTF, they didnt even touch it, those fucking bastards.

Man, it's hopeless, i'm out of photography until i have enough money for a new camera.

FUCKKKKK

She Told Me

2009-07-23T11:11:00.000-07:00

I'm hard to keep up with, but asked when i'll grow up.

Ouch.

Positive + Negative will always = Negative

Needed to post this somewhere for safe keeping

2009-07-22T15:44:00.001-07:00

She's the queen of hearts, your the king of diamonds, careless of your intentions, unrecognizable of her love

she's shining you in her limelight, just another spotlight

all she hopes for is for you to take notice

of her intentions, but your unaware...

-My unfinished poem, bitch

Nice Teeth

2009-07-22T10:48:00.000-07:00

-Permit test

-Homework

-Call for Service

-Camera

-Trick bike & Speed bike

-chill tonight

"If you knew my story word from word, all of my past history, would you go for someone like me?"

Kill the hype, honestly, whats so good about shoes, not gonna do you any good in heaven, is it really worth the money just

for a couple of compliments?

& i hate getting these stupid emails about buying my bike, come on, build your own setup, getting a fixie is not gonna be cheap.

Oh & buy my camera, Canon Rebel XSI w/ battery grip, 2 rechargeable batteries, battery charger, 8gig Sandisk Extreme 3 mem card, card reader, strap, and cap.

All for $550, only problem is the vertical grip button overreacts and sometimes won't shoot, but i still have the warranty card & box for the batterygrip. You can ship it to the Canon Service Factory in Irvine and get it fixed if you want.

I have the box for everything also, camera body, battery, grip, and blah. all that stuff. Just let me know, i need to sell it.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/behindthelense/3603403125/

2009-07-21T18:07:00.001-07:00

I'm still wondering and comprehending why it happened..now I'm cold hearted

Fuck Haters

2009-07-20T22:21:00.001-07:00

For everyone that has been trying to prank call me lately,

FUCK YOU, if your gonna say some shit, dont hide your fucking shitty ass face to me, show it and say it to my fucking face, quit hating because i'm getting somewhere with my life, your probably some typical ass filipino hypebeast that just fucking cares about materialistic shit. If you got something to say, fucking confront me if you have a problem with me because you could be probably horribly mistaken, bitch.

"They say when people hate your doing the right thing, but that's your perspective, their perspective, that never made it in this quote was that when they hate, they judge you for what you are, not who you are."

Try to stop me, I'm gonna make it to the top. Fucking Gnarcotix bitch!

Honestly

2009-07-20T10:57:00.000-07:00

I remember when Carl and I were hyping up the whole weekend of actually filming for the first time. The whole epic plan never ended and still continued on until today, this has been the most fun and adventure i ever had. The Gnarcotix life i guess! So last week was...i recall chillin with Kimberly, Resil, Chin, Pepe, Carl, Eric,Robert, and Marcus on Friday, pretty damn chill. Saturday was the swapmeet at Dolores Park and after was BFF, fail at the trick comp though, the bmx shii was awesome though. Watched some movies around 9 & went to the after party down at Sports Basement on Bryant & 16th. Sunday, was another filming day around the city with Veronica, Marcus, Fonseca, & Carl. Crazy thing about that day was that when going home we got pulled over because Fonseca's back license plate was unlit, but in the end he got cited for having an expired license, weird thing is that he got pulled over 2 times in the past few months and the other cops didnt say anything. We ended up walking to Carl's apartment and chillin the fuck out having a great time.

Oh & i was playing around with the Daniel's EOS-1N Film Cartridge Canon SLR, OHHHMYYYGAWD, that shit is so awesome, it's like a DSLR but just using a film cartridge, so sick, i was just messing with Daniel's Camera the whole time on Friday.

This summer is the most i have ever had fun and adventure, and the most unhealthiest i have eaten or slept. Crazy, i should work on the sleeping habit again, it's fucking me up at school.

UGH and i got pissed this morning when i was doing that test! I totally forgot how to solve word problems with logs -.-

when it was 183=ab to the power of 8 over 53=ab to the power of 4, i minused 53 from 183 like how your suppose to do for the exponents but your just suppose to leave them to be 183/53=b to the power of 4 then you multiply 1/4 from both sides then you get what b is T-T, i totally forgot about that, so i missed like 2 1/2 problems, FAWK. whatever though, today is either heading to SF again, or chilling with Sofia Bray today.

I honestly wouldn't want my summer any other way, because now it's just me & you.

Edit: & one more thing! I'm heading back to San Diego in 2 weeks for the premier of No Cassettes! Gonna be fucking sick

Photography Classes

2009-07-16T23:21:00.000-07:00

ARE FUCKING USELESS, unless your taking it to work at film and the procedures to developing a film & if your forced to because your planning to major or minor it in college. I guess a class to get to know how your camera works is alright, but you can always read the manual, that's why they put it in with the box. Why take a class from someone with a totally different view on things with his/her opinion on their shooting, processing style. Conflict of interest. You are practically learning from his or her experience and style, that is not originality, and knowing that photography is not just an art or skill, but both, you should experience your own and as an artist, develop your own view, ism, and style into your photography. In all honesty though, nothing is original, because all you do is combine the effort of everybody you ever know. Photo classes are a waste of money and time though, because in actuality, photography is really easy, it's just an expensive hobby, and as an artist, being human, you can only be selfish, not many photographers will tell you to go big once you get a camera, they tell you to go for something amature "so you can get used to it" that's some bullshit, because later on, you'll begin to love it and want a better setup. To put it all in simple words, after your done with the photo class, you can go back and tell yourself that it was all common sense and the class was such a waste of time, well that is if it hits you that you could have learned everything by yourself, but with the all time low education these days..

just my pair of cents

Edit: yea i know Sean, i never took a photo class.

You know why?

2009-07-16T16:18:00.000-07:00

"They call it summer lovin because all you do during summer is party and hookup, no one is really single

even if they have a particular individual. It's not even about the hookups, the parties, the cheating, the holding of

hands, the hot weather, the chill hangouts or even the cold drinks. It's the carefree attitude all over the air."

I'm gonna call it

2009-07-16T00:47:00.000-07:00

"Because i know, i'll leave without a trace, and no one will be able to hint out my trail and i'll come back out of the blue

just like the sun rising from the horizon after the darkest night in the coldest winter."

This is the farthest i'll go

2009-07-15T11:03:00.001-07:00

"Realizing that everything happens for a reason, you begin to change your mentality that not only you think

a bad decision is normal but you believe it's right when you look back on it, and that's what they call a negative optimistic habit.

The postive part is that you get over it faster, the negative part is that you begin making it a bad habit to where it becomes

normal. But it depends on your opinion and how it's looked at, therefore, learn from your mistakes and accept that it

was bound to happen, because there are no such things as accidents."

Another Day

2009-07-14T22:38:00.000-07:00

"I wouldn't have it any other way, but i do regret."

Gnarcotix in full effect

2009-07-12T20:40:00.000-07:00

I'm in the process of having the site up and running by tonight at 11, get ready to see the first trailer &

the very first few days of filming captured in pictures. If you haven't heard the bad news, my 135mmL got soaked in

root beer & i'll be sending it in for repair asap, and my 50mm aperture shutter isn't working correctly & borke. The good news is that I will be upgrading to a 5d Mark11 by the end of summer. I will own the lenses of 85mmL & possibly a 35mmL, but since i will be filming also for Gnarcotix, i might get a fisheye since of the full frame, or just possibly a super wide angle lens, havent chosen yet but i'll be making my decision soon.

Stay updated, the site will be soon up and running!

Please visit

gnarcotix.blogspot.com

if that does not work visit

gnarcotix.com

Fuck ISS

2009-07-08T20:23:00.001-07:00

Honestly, as much as i'm your friends, what is with all the frontin and everyone trying to be hella cool now.

Fuck shoes, revolve your life around something else, get out of the house instead of worrying about your fucking self.

Seriously, focusing on shoes & clothes all the time is one of the most selfish things you can do.

Tomorrow though 8)

Get ready to see some bomb ass pictures

Edit: My patience is running thin, like the tire on the back of a fixed.

Love for Granted

2009-07-08T17:02:00.000-07:00

The past few days have been probably the chillest they have ever been despite the hot weather.

& i should really start blogging again, but after this Thursday i will forsure, get ready to see how crazy this whole weekend is gonna end up!

July 2, Thursday

Jon came over & we headed to the island to chill with Carl, Sean, & Manny. To the Island, then near Fort Mason?

then we ate at Naan N Curry, herra good yo. Then we headed back to the island to see Taylor & Spensor. Ended the night cruising down

Market street near midnight.

July 3, Friday.

Just rode around San Mateo, Burlingame, & Milbrae to show Jon around. Ended up heading to Tanforan for no apparent reason & then heading

back to Burlingame and racing to Milbrae to actually catch Caltrain. Milpitas bound and just chilled at Great Mall for a bit. Sleptover Richard's house that night.

His dog peed all over my jacket & we just practically played games & knockout.

July 4, Saturday

Woke up early to chill at Jon's place, took showers and biked to Great Mall and ended up seeing Andre. Tricked for a bit and chilled at McDonalds

cause it was so fucking hot. Saw Dale later on & chilled more. Headed back home to get ready again and headed to Cardoza Park. Saw people i haven't seen in awhile & it was like, i guess, chill? Bboys, skaters, & fixed gear riders were the entertainment till the fireworks. Carl, Axle, & Aylmer came out of no where and chilled with em a bit after the fireworks. I ended up sleeping over Jansens that night and blah.

July 5, Sunday

Woke up late and had to get ready right after to head over Carl's house for a bbq, oysters!! Tricked around i guess? We got hella lazy and didn't know what to do until Wingstop. Samantha & Ica were there also ,LMFAO. Fremont Fixed wingstop meet at night & had yoswirl also. Got picked up thats it.

July 6, Monday

School, then went to Summit to chill, and stayed home sleeping & doing homework.

July 7, Tuesday

School, transactions & chilled with Carl. Went around Fremont & did hella shit at his house, herra funny. Wingstop & Yoswirl was the regular. Thursday though. & saw Jackie on the BART, crazy, havent seen her in a while.

July 8, Wednesday

My resting day, school, homework, & naps. Sleeping early tonight so i can get school over with & just head straight to the city right after.

2009-07-07T22:30:00.001-07:00

I'm so fucking ready for Thursday!

At Least

2009-07-07T11:57:00.000-07:00

".. i can say proudly that i tried my best to do so, you will never see that, but that's fine."

CAUTION

2009-07-06T22:12:00.000-07:00

Because he does not know the dangers of what's in for him, the depth of the abyss that has already engulfed him, he's a walking shadow, more known

as king of rock bottom, and she, she is different. He thinks she's the princess he long awaits for, the frog to his kiss, to save him for such an everlasting bliss.

But he knows not of what of her personality hoax, more of a trickster rather than a joker, the joker of a court. She hides her insides with cultivating attraction, and one kiss...her one kiss is a dose of sodium chloride, ranked 14 on a ph scale, so toxic that all you can do is melt. She leaves you with these unspoken feelings, making you think if she feels the same as you do, and you begin sleeping with an enemy called doubt, and probably the reason why your still in the same position as the day before yesterday. You possibly think, is this karma, the judgement of becoming selfish that you've changed your whole entire being to someone else for someone else.

-karlnorotea

Cosmos for the focus

2009-07-06T18:07:00.000-07:00

"I'm on your side, dark days & cold nights, this is what we are going through, keep holding on, it will be alright."

Tara Ellis, she is beautiful, just like you

Holding On

2009-07-06T15:01:00.000-07:00

".. so what I tend to do is to think of today as the past.
It’s funny when you’re coming in first, but you hope that you’re last.
You just hope, that it lasts"

2009-07-05T02:17:00.001-07:00

"Dont judge me, try hard to love me."

Be The One

2009-07-02T05:10:00.000-07:00

"Now i can't dream about no one else but you, what am i suppose to do?"

Supernova

2009-07-01T00:05:00.000-07:00

"....i dont want to spend a day sober, i want to feel numb all over."

2009-06-29T23:45:00.001-07:00

Now I can say, there is someone else. Now I can say, there is someone better. Now I can say, there someone else to look forward to. Now I can say, there is someone else worth while. Now I can say, there's gotta be another, another forever.

There's just something about your love babygirl. I know that I'm caring on, nevermind if I'm showing off, i was just frontin, you know I want you babe. I'm ready to bet it all, unless you don't care at all but you know I want you, you should stop frontin babe.

I miss you bestfriend

NO ONE KNOWS SHIT ABOUT TRANSFORMERS

2009-06-27T02:47:00.000-07:00

surprisingly, Transformers 2 actually followed the story of Generation 2 series, ahhh childhood cartoons! 8)

3rd movie is fasho gonna be about Unicron transforming Megatron into Galvatron so they can take over Earth after the fail of the Fallen. If anyone knows, Unicron is the same guy as in Fantastic 4:Silver Surfer, known as that big giant transformer that eats planets, including Earth. Unicron is also part of the GI Joe series but most likely wont be coming out in the new movie. & to clear things up, Primus was the one that created the transformers which were made to serve Cybertron, & Unicron is Primus's nemisis which also harnesses weapons called mini-cons. all that blah blah blah, decepticons want the energon to destroy Cybertron & earth, and the Auto bots are to protect it & blah blah blah. heheheh Rodimus Prime though.

Transformers 3 better be the shit -.-

childhood cartoons for the fucking win. & someone please talk to me who actually grew up to see this shit & understood it -.-

2009-06-26T21:26:00.001-07:00

I love the feeling of being in San Francisco at night. Reminiscy feeling. Hurry up babygirl so I can share this feeling with you.

Slight Amnesia

2009-06-26T09:11:00.000-07:00

& this is serious, i know who i am and all that shit, but i cant remember how i fell or what happened yesterday, and

i can't remember a lot really. can someone help me rather than being messed up?

my head hurts and i just want to remember everything.

Halfway because a smile won't get you far

2009-06-25T15:14:00.000-07:00

Found out that it was ______ ____'s _____ anniversary. I'm sorry to hear miss.

& that Michael Jackson died from a heart attack & Farah Fawcett died from Anal Cancer today. Crazy.

6 more months till Christmas, & 5 more days till we're halfway done with this year.

It's summer and i've been doing my best & having the most of fun. I enjoy it.

Photography creativeness is kicking in.

Learning new things on the bike.

Schools been chill.

Guitaring & bboying is next.

& a maybe a small shopping spree for new shii.

you can click on the pictures by the way

& seriously dont get it twisted, it was just some photo&lighting ideas, i ain't trying too. Trust

7 more problems

2009-06-24T23:11:00.001-07:00

& i'm done with all my assignments.

11:11

Girlfriend

2009-06-24T21:20:00.000-07:00

What are those words that mean, the same for you?

Ditto & touche? More like douche, cause thats what you are.

Well no trip, i hope the best for ya. You deserve it, don't you?

Algebra 2 for summer school aint that bad, sitting next to a cutie though. I've gone through all my assignments through Chapter 1-4

crazy right?! I did all of that in 3 days. haha JUST KIDDING, we skipped chapters 2 & 3, but im done with 1 fasho. Almost done with the

first 2 sections of Chapter 4. This weekend is nonstop studying for my permit test (surprisingly i'm lagging -.-) & it's job looking time.

Gonna sell my camera & my iphone. Gonna upgrade fasho to a 5dMark2 or possibly a nikon..& imma upgrade to a iPhone3g S.

& my cousins from the PI are coming here tomorrow? Crazy.

& i moved into a new room in the house, my own room now.

Brainstorming with photo projects & thinking about some video projects also. Been writing em down.

This weekend needs to come by fast, i need some rest.

Got some new ideas, new ideas, for you, & me. Just you, and me.

I=U=Me

2009-06-23T16:36:00.000-07:00

It's not just cause, it's more of a habit.

I want it, because i do need it.

& Realization hit me like air.

Someone told me.

K: i hate choosing though

a: haha. Funny thing is, often times, the one you don't choose is the one that would've mattered most.

Pictures are up! from the SD trip.

flickr.com/photos/flawlesseffect

fuck the seriousity, my camera wont function right -.-

selling it though. Gonna upgrade.

There is no place like home

2009-06-22T00:55:00.000-07:00

Saturday June 20

Fucking serious. My 9 day trip to SD made me realize that everything that ive done & experienced during my time up here in the bay was because of the love for my first home, SF. I hate how people are like oh you don't live in SF! PSH come on now, it's not the status quo, it's the roots. During the flight home, i reminisced a bit on how fun those kick its, expeditions, strolls were in SF. None of those feelings came from how i felt for that person but it was how we were in that environment & atmosphere. May not make sense for you but it does for me & a quote from my friend Greg,"If you come to the bay, you either stay or you turn gay!" & ain't that shit the truth.

A few shoutouts.

Jazper, my song reminds me of you.

AmberRae, your a damn cutie.

Jansen, we need to shoot.

Jon, we need to ride.

Jemma, eyemeeshyouz.

Matt & Arturo, hurry up and come up to SF.

Dad, Happy Father's Day.

I promised pictures, they'll be up. Don't worry. Let me recuperate.

Life just put on a toll for the best.

Sunday, June 21

Father's Day was chill, watched a movie with my Dad & chilled with him for a while. Then he dropped me off at Milpitas to kick it with Jon.

We took VTA to Dtn San Jose & chilled with Miles & his friend. Then we rode like halfway to Milpitas chasing after the light rail & decided to give up.

We then tarcked a bit at the theaters then headed of to Fremont for Wingstop & a bathroom! Damn chill, was more of an adventure. Arrived at wingstop

and we ate 35 wings, regular fries, had 2 drinks, & Jon got some Ranch sauce. We murdered it so fast. haha, i'm still hungry! After we chilled with Fremont Fixed. Met some new people, saw some old people. Learned some new stuff & i'm happy. School tomorrow for Algebra 2! No pictures for today.

SD pictures will be up, trust yo! I'm busy cause im moving to my old room & my cousins from the PI are coming down this Thursday! Excited.

Babygirl, i want you in my arms.

2009-06-18T22:48:00.001-07:00

In the car with Jason, and got back from a ride with SD fixed. Pretty damn epic, 8th and market to Fiesta Island, met hella people, 1 crash, almost 1 crash(slipped near the road seperates from the sand, was cut of by an erosion but recovered)bonfire, death jump, ohh and the movie Death Pedal. Was damn chill, will upload pictures when I get back. Time to eat, and I'm excited to kick it with her tomorrow. Oh fasho. Shit's fucking tight

2009-06-17T13:16:00.001-07:00

I want to go home, not because of my intentions at first, but because of excitement, this closure wasn't what I really expected but whatever, was really expecting of you to be more openminded, but it's chill yea?there's a reason why things happen and with this dark blue pen I wash my hands of this situation I'm in, you changed my ideas of what true love is, i understand it but we didn't plan this for bad intentions, this is God's reminder of what I truly need, I'm wiping my eyes clear and rise above this.

The best ship is friendship, it's true but that's still some damn bullshit. More like the best shit is friendship.

Summer is Comeback Season and that shit isn't referring to kick it's and relationships but it's time to get back on track, prime time and be like hey ladies ;)

"Success is revenge, and revenge will be sweeter than you'll ever be"
-The Veronicas

2009-06-17T12:00:00.001-07:00

Miss January

I had to say goodbye to miss January ,she had a hold on my mind for so long, I learned
a lesson from life from miss January, the way you left my heart is less heavy when the first light shines in June

And you know when that light is? June 21st, the longest day of sunlight. Maybe you should listen to this song also.

2009-06-16T20:48:00.001-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Ohmygoodness, so I know, that was fucking easy, ain't gonna happen yo, ain't gonna happen.
Oh this is a fucking show 8)

Let's see who's prestige bitch!

2009-06-16T19:23:00.001-07:00

San Diego, at Otay right now and gonna chill at wingstop later.

Anyone know if SD has a fixed gear group? SD fixed?
And anyone want to chill tonight?

Not until your totally chill, then maybe.

Flight 3582

2009-06-12T02:43:00.000-07:00

I'm excited. Really am. Photography is on my mind like crazy. And earlier yesterday, more burdens were lifted.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

But this unspecific worrisome gitty feeling is eating me up. I told myself, no backing out, there is no backing out, it's hard enough

not too. Face to face is where i want this. I want this, more than anything.

Sorry to Jansen, i wish i could make it to the bonfire. Make a video shoutout to me. Some napping, more packing, & then off to the airport.

I enjoy this part of the journey.

Party Time

2009-06-10T11:48:00.001-07:00

Summer is so damn cheel.

2 more days till im in San Diego.

Hyped. Officially.

Need to start packing

San Jose Excursion

2009-06-09T02:07:00.000-07:00

June 3, Wednesday

Sister's Grad. Reception. Midnight run to Starbucks. Zebra Hot Chocolate

June 4, Thursday

Jefferson Grad. Tanforan. Ran into an old friend. Monster desserts, Popeye, Greg's House. Midnight Premier of Land of the Lost

June 5, Friday

Long ass train rides to Milpitas. MHS bound, ran into Celeste. First time eating at a frozen yogurt place. Visited MHS. Rode to MHS to Eastridge.

Red Robbin for Kevin's 18th. "herra""herr yea". Eastridge. Carnival. Pictures. Jansen's House. Rebound the movie.

June 6, Saturday

Woke up late. World's Deadliest Warrior. Photoshoot. Mikey's party. New friends, old friends.

June 7, Sunday

Woke up early, just a bit. Watched Superbad. Picked up by Randy. SJSU bound. Registered. Manifest. SJSU to Oakridge. Oakridge to Greatmall.

Approximately 3 blow outs between Oakridge to Greatmall. Greatmall to Eastridge. Eastridge to Santana Row. Late for the checkpoint so we

stayed at Valley Fair. Picked up, La Vics. Orange Sauce. More inside jokes. Knocked out.

Pictures at flickr.com/photos/carlpreme

cirocksf.blogspot.com

June 8, Monday

Stayed up. Woke up Late. Late breakfast at Evergreen Inn. Jazper & His mom, Monica came. SCHS to pick up my lock & wrench.

Jansen's House. Bused to MHS. Chilled with them heads. Wingstop. Milpitas Library. Sato Sushi. Homebound.

June 9, Tuesday

Edit: Photos all day, chilling, editing. Webcamming. Chill.

Summer is Comeback Season ( Warning, HELLA Pictures)

2009-05-31T12:25:00.000-07:00

Photos are pretty ehh, it's summer so im serious about getting serious now & i think i've messed around with the settings to actually get used to my camera's full manual settings. Summer is so long though & it only has been 4 days, i just hope i don't get sick of it so fast.

A lot has been happening though, crazy. & yea i actually like vent like crazy here, LMFAO, from what i've been told.

& James, if your reading this, I love you, no homo.

Monday 5/25/09

SJ Fixed BBQ

consisted of getting together with a bunch of chill people, eating some good ass food, throwing water ballons

and just having a fun time. Went to JP's after & played Rockband. OFFICIALY CHEEL.

Tuesday

First finals, English 2 was so damn easy.

Finished our Spanish final that day also.

& Ate at the "New Mongolian Beef Buffet" & was a 3 out of a 5

Visited ECHS though, was pretty cool. Saw some old friend like Stina, Matt, & Paula

Wednesday

Bio final, 2nd part of the Spanish final, & World History Final, was like a breeze

i'm so glad i'm such a good obedient studier, no conceit though. After heading out,

i chilled with Clinton & Paulo at the Colma Skatepark. We then met up with James at his house,

Nazi Zombies FTFW. You NAAAA

Thursday

Last day of finals, came late for religion, didn't have to pay, hella easy, once i entered i practically finished.

Geo, was alright, i studied but most of it was like common sense & I asked Woodruff for help & probably got

a solid A. Left early to take my placement test for Algebra 2 at skyline college to take over the summer.

It's a placement test, stuff you should already know, so that shit was so easy. After, I chilled with Stina at Serramonte, cut it

short cause of some reason & like i rode from Serramonte all the way to Tanforan, was fun. Ate at Monster Desserts & applied

at Century Theaters for the summer.

Friday

Was damn chill. Woke up early to find myself getting ready and hurrying up to the Burlingame Caltrain Station

Rode to MVA to chill with D. Vo & we ate at this really good Mexican Supermarket that had really good ass burritos.

After we went to the park near his house to shoot for his Grad. Was damn chill & we experimented with day light strobes.

We went to chill near Alexa's house to wait for MHS to get out. Listened to herra music & watching a chicken going around peoples houses, no joke.

Went to the tables when the bell rang & saw everyone again. Gave Angelica's present to her, pretty chill. Hugs, wassups, hand greets , fist bumps.

Chilled with the fixed riders near the parking lot & my tube valve broke, they got me a new tube & i met them up at Great mall, we rode to In&Out to go eat & we tricked for a bit at the parking lots. Everyone rode to Greatmall & it was a really good sesh. Went our separate ways & Kenny, Michael, & I went in to watch a movie, different times though. UP was a good ass movie, i'm not gonna lie, it was touching and i teared cause of it, and whatever really, just cause it was like hella reminiscing i guess, the best way i can describe it. After i chilled with Jansen & Erika for a bit, you 2 fight to much. 50+d90 = leet. Met up with Kenny & Michael and we tricked a little more. Kenny & I later went to the Pines & happened to see Kevin Muhammed, Alan, Steven, & someone else (sorry, forgots your name) Talked and blah & we walked to Steven's. "So Karl, I heard you think __________________ are __________."

"WTF, who told you that? But i ain't gonna lie, they are." "Foreal, i don't even hang out with __________ anymore."

Funny how gossip spreads like a wild fire, and in the end everything we say is just a misunderstanding, we didn't mean what we said, or was directed to something else. Oh how stupid. Glad talking with ya Steven.

Saturday

WOW, so the morning was a bit hectic. Buying of a lock & then going to DXC. I got to say, DXC was such a gahh damn fail. Recession for the lose, everyone

was there to just sell, barely any buyers, & i hate shoes, fuck, i don't want no trades bitch, seriously, it's sad how many teens revolve heir fucking whole damn life towards shoes."At the end of the day you can't say shit about me because my whole life revolves around a fucking miracle." & aren't we all hypebeasts? I'm a hypebeast, i"m just one of the first to admit it, but once it comes out on a legit dictionary, none of that urbandictionary shit, then i'll believe what the definition is, so we're all either hypebeast or not, fucking deal with it. Jealous of Sean's wound-up. Rode to Chrome to sell something and blah, ate at McDonalds & talked about some shii. Headed back & tried selling useless shit to hype ass people. I'm just glad i sold all my shii, need money for some stuff i've been eyeing on. Fail at the end on planning where to eat, we all ended up eating at In&Out in Daly City. Serra bowl after, & then headed out to Class Night.

Felt out of place but i'm not gonna go into detail, ha under the stairs though, come on, i'm not the only one that remembers that..

Sunday 5/31/09

Stuck uploading all these stupid ass pictures. Let's cheel tonight!

& i probably felt out of place yesterday night was because i drifted away so much from my own school & friends.

i'm to scared to open & read what people even wrote in my yearbook.

time to get ready & see if i can cheel with someone tonight

Unspoken Feelings

2009-05-24T20:15:00.000-07:00

you know what, fuck everyone else, i just want you, but it's not the fact that i want you, it's the fact that i need you.

I'm sorry, i never meant to push you away, if you read this or never read this at all, i'm gonna put down the words so you know where i stand,

i still love you, because like the song chasing pavements, if i told the whole world, it would not be enough to tell you myself, but i'm no man enough

to tell you, but it's exactly what i need to do. I don't want to give up, but i don't want to be led no where. Could this be it? I built myself up where i'm flying

in circles, my heart drops & my back begins to tingle, this can't be it. I have faith that this can't be it because that is not all there is.

TINATI

gonna be MIA again for a while.

i'd give away my twitter but it gives away my tumblr. but until then. Goodbye for now readers.

in a little bit i'll upload pictures from today.

****************** Added Edit:

SJfixed bbq & then JP's place after & Rockband.

Damn cheel, will upload photos tomorrow night, sorry guys finals!

Won't Even Start

2009-05-24T10:58:00.000-07:00

MIA, sorry i was chasing pavements but found out where the sidewalk ends.

Is it true? That your over it? I guess i gave out a false impression...

I'm not over it, bleh this is such a waste cause you don't read this anymore.

i'll just tumble later.

I really forgot what happened this whole week.

Monday

Regular school day, really chill cause it was dead week.

Edited photos till the break of midnight

Tuesday

FML, want list made. School is gay. Reviewing is so stressing.

Edited photos till the break of midnight again.

STANFORD IS MINE

Wednesday

School again. Post office i believe? Reviewing for finals.

Edited photos till 11, finished up then.

Practiced on my bike, yay, new stuff down.

Didn't stay for the fashion show

Thursday

School Again. Post office again. Reviewed for finals.

Practicing again.

Chill day after school, ate it though.

Late night studying making history final review.

You appeared out of no where, but no obstacles for right now.

Friday

Last real day of school, chill, more tricking.

more pictures, took pictures of the seniors, then beach vespers.

Shit, lonely as fuck. lonliest shit feeling ever.

Went to Joash's afer. Followed my dad back home on my bike.

ehhh, i hate how your always on my mind.

Saturday

Woke up late, got ready & biked to church.

Saw Jeff, been a while. Went out & got ready

to chill with Catherine & Christine, then met up with Gonzalo & Christina later.

Was it really necessary to be reminded me of you in such a time? finals & how the atmosphere is crumbling down.

Just made me weaker. Union Square photoshoot with Catherine & Christine before the bbq at Zalo's.

Saw Mindy, Ronald, & Rolo. Chilled & talked in Zalo's room. "What's talked in this room, stays in this room."

ehhh, i've reached the part of my life where it's become desolate but honest, making rash & poor decisions.

A part of me just wants to become the martyr and start whining but i'm just another arrow flying towards the target

An auto-pilot operation, i can't do shit to stop it. We can't just be friends..

there has to be a way to stop it

TINATI, because, that is not all there is.

Sunday

About to chill with Gabe, Renjie, & Cat in SF.

Pictures will be uploaded later

Never been this lazy for photos. Not feeling it right now, like seriously, i feel like selling my camera & stuff, no inspiration for shit.

So Wonderful

2009-05-17T20:29:00.000-07:00

Just cause it's a special date today, Happy 1 year Megatron.

Exactly one year that i've had my camera.

& almost a month that i've had my bike. Time flies by.

Just cause Van told me to blog, i'll blog, seriously, who reads this anymore?

So Wednesday

boring ol' boring school.

forgot what happened.

Thursday

Ummm, i guess school again?

all i remember is taking pictures after school.

Saw Nathan & talked about turning 18. Ahh good times.

Friday

Fail at going to BOTT & kicking it with Angelina. So i ended up

going to tanforan after school, saw hella people.

Robert, Tita Elma & Uncle Michael, Sarina & her sister, & my cousin Cheska with her boyfriend.

YUM, rasberry lemon square at starbucks. Took some good pictures in the mall & got embarrassed watching my mom & brother

at the fake rollercoaster thing. Cutie at cingular though, eye candy. & leaving from the theater entry, going to our parking lot

we got stuck at the elevator in the process, sucked. Ended up going home talking on the phone, that's a first.

Saturday

Photo gig day. Been over a month that i haven't been to church, funny that no one is there when im there, oh wellz, very hotz day, &

had a blackout also. Weird how i'm in positions like that. What's your Passion? Ended up leaving after church to head to Fremont.

Long ass ride & got picked up by Uly, Coldstone after with the regular shake, yano? milk&cookies with one scoop of ice cream.

After that, JonTan picked us up in his RSX typeS, which will be mine soon 8)

Photo gig was different from what i expected, very filipino like, & traditional. Was very homey & was in a comfortable atmosphere.

The night went well, only bad thing was sweating the whole time cause it was hot, the line dancing was fun & the Food deserved an A.

Surprisingly random Pitbull was there with his GoGo dancers, LMFAO. It was a really fun night, i have to say, later that night was fucking hilarious though!

That was the most that i've laughed in a while, made my weekend. HAHHA right after we left we had this frustrating conversation with this PMSed Lady, got mad at Jon for parking in the handicapped space.! "It's not Okay! My Mom is handicapped!"

& what we could have said, "there's 2 right next to me, she can double park if she wants to." "Well my mom is Dead!""Your mom is smoking!

no wonder she's handicapped."

HAHAH the pedo-bear & the pika. Shit was tight. & we ended the night with watching Forgetting Sarah Marshall. Reminded me

then knocked out at 4.

Sunday

Special K cereal for the fucking WIN!

Oh the ride home was so frickin boring. Cutie in front of me, but i slept all the way to Milbrae, very hot day.

Ended up buying my APCs & doing hella shit today, still need to edit all 300 photos from last night.

& now, time to study for finals, edit photos, finish my drivers ed, & just chill.

flickr.com/photos/flawlesseffect

Same Beat, Never on the Same Verse

2009-05-12T21:41:00.000-07:00

"The hardest secret to keep is the opinion of one's self."

"Be happy even though there's nothing to be happy about."

Very Big announcement. I screwed up this year, and i know that.

I've been lazy as fuck. So it's time for some change especially hearing some things i haven't heard my

Dad spilled out to me.

I made a few pacts, from here on out, it's just seriousness, concentration, striving, & determination.

I am not asking money from my parents anymore, for anything what so ever. (School does not apply)

I'm going to start studying and doing my work now for school, gonna cut the slack and be the top student i used to be.

& im gonna work the best and improve myself with the skills i have. Serious photography pictures now.

One last thing, have my Commitment to Christ to 100%, that explains it.

So i won't be on here for a while. Goodbye for now readers.

Yet Another Misunderstanding

2009-05-11T22:38:00.000-07:00

I really can't seem to get away from these.

More money, more problems.

Lazyness seems to wear off.

Photography is starting to get serious.

Finished a project early for once.

Exatcly 1/2 way done with drivers ed and started yesterday.

No more biking to school since everyone hates me & my bike. You guys happy now?

Hella tests this week. Dead week next week.

Photoshoot on wednesday & thursday

first gig on Saturday.

More stickers.

People just can't to seem to love me the way i am, but who said imma change for anyone?

FUCKERS

Hate being lonely, but seems like the only thing that will benefit me right now.

& saw Lance today, good ol' times.

Uhm..i need new friends.

TINATI

N/A

2009-05-10T15:33:00.000-07:00

Who reads my blog these days?

Friday, School Picnic

My absense on Thursday greatly affected my presense on Friday. School picnic, didn't participate this time. Photographer

for the day, pictures needed for the supplement page for yearbook. Mugged when walking down the aisle. Didn't say a word for more than an hour.

A shake of the head or nod was my answer to every question. I really didn't want to be there. As the day progressed, games were played, Timmy's

toe nail cracked, caused a scene. Water balloons seemed to be the only entertainment that day. Camera was dying. A real bad way to start off the day.

It's funny how everything just seems to be a misunderstanding

"Your picking on someone twice your size."

Funny how you didn't even stand up for me,but then he shouldn't have gotten mad, just water, won't hurt you dumbass.I have a problem? Please,

all of you are just uptight.

Glad that school was finally over, minimum day seemed to save me. Process to get to EV was frustrating, Biking up hill dehydrated is not fun.

Chilled at EV for a while, funny how everyone just seems to judge these days. Seriously, if your gonna be jealous or think your better than someone

without meeting them first, don't say a word.

"I'll believe the word hypebeast once it's in the dictionary, cause seriously, i don't think anyone really understands what it actually means."

To lazy so you converted to a single speed. FAIL. Fatass.

When we left EV, we stopped by to get some drinks. Jansen & I got some aloe vera & a thai tea. That Aloe Vera had so much sugar it killed me the whole

time i was in San Jose. We headed home first, prepped up & headed to In&Out to chill with Anthony (Pinoyflava). After that we headed to Eastridge, pretty chill actually. Worksmen & Daiso for stickers. Daiso had a Canadian Flag but no Japanese Flag -.-

Gamestop was chill, met Brendan, fixed rider but has a really nice road bike. "I'll give you guys a discount cause you guys are hella cool. 15% percent off, my employee discount."

So chill, then headed to Zumiez. Met Grace & this chill white guy, didn't happen to catch his name.

"Your looking for a supreme sticker? Head to LA! They have everything Supreme!"

"Ha I know, even incense!"

White Guy- "Dude that hella reminds me this one kid that would always come in here for incense, and everytime he would come

he would stand there at the register holding just one stick. & whenever he came to buy it, he would always exact change, 19 or 22 cents.

One day i asked him why he buys them, next thing you know he sticks it in his mouth and starts eating it."

"Oh shoot! hahahah, isn't that stuff poisonous though?"

"Naw, it's organic. Still pretty disgusting though."

& Another Convo

"Wait, so your 20 yea?"

"Yes i am."

"WTF! your hella short, i feel young, i just turned 16 last week."

"So who turned 16 last week again?"

"I did."

"Damn, jailbait!"

After Eastridge though, Anthony dropped Jansen & I off. & weird how you came out of no where in the conversation.

We rode to Jansen's middle school to get some footage, his mom was mad after.

S'all good. Jansen & I made some good ass adobo, lack of rice, but it's whateva. Watched Me, you, & Dupri. Mad the whole time

cause the damn movie. Didn't sleep till 1 ish, & still wondering who called me at 2:30 in the morning.

Saturday 5/9/09

Woke up early to pick up Erika, everything in my head is a bit scrambled cause i took tiny naps like every 15 minutes. Erika & Jansen's

Mom were getting their nails done for the wedding in Las Vegas. Ate breakfast, watched Sky High, naps, naps, naps, some lonesome,

showered, ate potstickers, napped, napped, napped, then headed out to Valley Fair. Walked around & got Angelica her birthday present.

Met up with Catherine & Kate. Walked around more and more, hella shit but nothing to buy. Coldstone shake was bomb as always.

Santana Row, damn rich. Hella chill ass atmosphere though. Walked around & conversed. No pictures to describe it though.

Ate at Plutos to end the night ish. She's cute. Headed out, Freshmen Dinner? WTF. Dropped off C&K, headed to pick up Jansen's Aunt.

Dropped off Erike & progressed to drop me off at my place. 11 i arrived home, tired as fuck, sugar down, killed me the whole day.

Thanks Jansen.

Sunday. Missed out

Woke up here and there & didnt actually wake up until 1. Missed out on the Tourist Trap race, wanted to go but had no ride

there since my Dad headed out with my sister & bro. Mom's at work, & i'm home doing school orientated stuff. Life's been in that

FML status but it's good cause im optimistic. Oh well.

TINATI

Pictures will be up on Jansen's flickr

flickr.com/photos/behindthelense

Happy Mother's Day Mom, you won't see this, but thanks, like seriously.

Learning the Contrast, You Against (Clean Version)

2009-05-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

"When God measures a man, he puts the tape around the heart instead of the head."

Wednesday. Half the Spirit, Half the Week

This is a blog talking to the person i haven't even met yet.

I'm staying on a friday, flat on the floor looking back on old love, or lack thereof

crushes have faded, all my wishful thinking is wrong, im jaded, & i hate it.

Searching all my days to find you, not sure who im looking for, i'll know it when i'll see you

till then i'll hide in my bedroom, staying up all night writing a love song for no one.

Coulda met you on a sandbox, maybe passed you by the sidewalk? or maybe i missed my chance & watched you walk away.

i'm so tired of being alone, so hurry up get here.

You'll be so good, You'll be so good for me.

Just for Keith

For the regular blog. Pictures from Monday & Today.

Thursday

Woke up, thought i was gonna school but nahh i find my parents telling me to stay home -.-

So i slept in till 11:30, was watching a movie that was hella sick, don't know the name but it that shit was tight.

Left the house around 1. Lost your Hearing? Stayed there at my appointment for 2 hours & 30 minutes, fucking drove me nuts waiting.

Once finally out, went home, decided to ride around Downtown Burlingame & ride to In&Out to search for flowers for my project.

Was in success & decided to stop by the Milbrae Caltrain/Bart Station, saw Jing, Jillina, & Victoria unexpectedly. Chilled. Mom picked me up & we headed

to Tanforan, Met a fellow rider going by Robert, & damn he's good. Like no lie. Chilled with him for a bit to sesh. Then went to Target, bought my photo album

went to Barnes & Nobles & Rob hooked it up with the Pilgrim's Progress, book i needed for school. Then ordered Pazookie at BJs!! Cookies&Cream nigga.

Stopped by places, some asian supermarket, then back to my old house in Mariposa where i ran into Patrick unexpectedly, we had a catch up conversation.

I miss karate T-T. He's a black belt now, as i can remember i was a 2nd degree brown, one more degree for brown & then after i woulda been a black belt.

Whateva. He's a senior now, drives a honda accord, & he has a girlfriend now, made me feel like that i haven't changed at all. lmfao. oh well. It was a good conversation.

so I'm tired, screwed over cause of school, & tomorrow is the school picnic, have to take pictures, no games for me this year. & After, gonna visit

Jansen & Janelle at Evergreen.

TINATI

Learning the Contrast, You Against.

2009-05-06T20:45:00.000-07:00

"When God measures a man, he puts the tape around the heart instead of the head."

Wednesday. Half the Spirit, Half the Week

This is a blog talking to the person i haven't even met yet.

I'm staying on a friday, flat on the floor looking back on old love, or lack thereof

crushes have faded, all my wishful thinking is wrong, im jaded, & i hate it.

Searching all my days to find you, not sure who im looking for, i'll know it when i'll see you

till then i'll hide in my bedroom, staying up all night writing a love song for no one.

Coulda met you on a sandbox, maybe passed you by the sidewalk? or maybe i missed my chance & watched you walk away.

i'm so tired of being alone, so hurry up get here.

You'll be so good, You'll be so good for me.

Just for Keith

For the regular blog. Pictures from Monday & Today.

Oh before you read in between the lines excuse my cursing. All in the moment type madness, usually when im pissed

i'll feel guilty after, but this is different, so much different. & one more thing, i don't know who reads this or who

likes to talk about my blog in public, i'd just like to say this, i appreciate it, another reason for that e-fame.

Oh & this is for the whole general public, don't get butthurt cause it's not directed to you personally.

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So today went good, half of the day it seemed. Academically, it's on a good note, no more laziness due to the end of the semester coming up.

Social wise, Shit. Alright let's get this straight reader, want to know the reason why i chill outside of school more than chilling with the people

that you see on a regular basis? One reason is because i feel closest to those i'm farthest from.

2nd reason is cause of school, FUCK THEM, well okay, maybe im over exaggerating it. but fuck, seriously, dealing with school bullshit, alright, so seriously

i want to know the reason why you guys hate me.

"You know Karl, that's one reason why people hate you." -Aunoa

Fine, i agree, alright so, i fucked up back in January with that whole incident with the bikes. Fine, i have all of this expensive shit that i use on a daily basis.

Fine, i'm trying to learn new things. Fine, i talk to cute girls. Fine, i dress nice even though i say it's crap. Fine, i act like a jerk when i'm around all of you.

Fine, my personality isnt at it's best when im around my friends. Fine, i say words that annoy the shit out of you, like yo & zayum.

& you know what's funny? I fucked up, but look, i have a very nice bike that everyone wants to ride on. My camera, it's a hobby, last years birthday gift,

i'm the school photographer, fine, want to destroy it, destroy your fucking yearbook, destroy something that i have a fucking passion for. I'm trying to learn how to dance & to learn more instruments, ohmy, all of a sudden i see you guys trying to do the shit i do. Oh and the girls? How many times do i have to say this, they may be cute, but some are not chill,personality over looks anyday,and i can never play, cause i'm no heartless faggot. & havent i stressed it enough that my low ass self esteem brings my confidence down trifold? But i ain't gonna lie, no one is fucking cute in our school, NO ONE. Sure i act like a jerk, can you guys tell the sarcasm in my voice, knowing me for your whole life you guys should already know my exact characteristics, & my personality also, i've known you fuckers for to long & you guys are beginning to annoy the shit out of me. & what can i say, i'm still a sophomore, ive grown out of it cause im the mature one, you idiots keep on hating. Not to brag, i'm the only sophisticated one. & for the last, it's weird how repetition is the key to learning, looks like everyone is saying yo & zayum & gah damnit, alright alright. Read carefully & they're all statements, i'm just saying in my opinion, they could be wrong or not but seems like that's whats been going on. So i'm gonna end this, thanks MVA for being a Christian school but having the attitudes of sin. Thanks for the students in MVA for always gossiping, hating, & doing unnecessary shit. Thanks classmates for being the worst & divided class, sure we have spirit, but we aint no team nigga. & thanks Aunoa for saying that in front of my face, & thanks Benji for peeing on my handlebars. Seriously thanks. Success is Revenge.

I have no record, at all, for doing something personally to any of you, tell me & i'll get my ass up and apologize in front of you, shoot, i'll do it in front of the whole school. OH one more thing, below the influence, major turn off. What was this year, druggy year or something? Weed, alcohol, pills, etc. I have more fun watching people do that shit rather than doing the shit. Come on, isnt it funny watching people run into the backyard sliding doors when they're high? or even watching people talk & throw up cause they had one shot to many, OH & watching people kiss an ugly person cause they're damn drunk? Oh shit, the worst thing is, if it's you, i can make fun of you & shit to make you feel guilty or stupid, or get you mad & annoyed. Seriously come on now -.-

Kill all those brain cells, like they matter yea? Maybe that's the reason most of the people i know lost their common sense.

Revenge is sweeter than your ever worth. I'm fucking pissed, i'm sorry but fuck i have to let it out somewhere don't I? I'm sorry but 2 days before 11 months?

Sure go ahead, i could understand the parents part, but how guys won't stop beasting on you, zayum girl, i mean like alright let them get in between so deep into the relationship & let them ruin it, you could of stopped that. Don't get me wrong, it's been like what 6 months already & i still havent forgotten about it,

i lost every single emotion, your not even the same anymore, & what's even more ironic was that i was the more Godly one in the relationship, you enjoy church now like no other, and look at me, i need a revival, my relationship is utterly broken with God. Girl, don't get me wrong, it was a wonderful relationship, it was never stupid, to compare the both of us, YOU were the stupid one for being so indecisive. To be honest, everything i was trying to do, to become, was to gain you back, but looking at it now, i'm just gonna do it for my own personal benefit & to fucking prove the shit out of you wrong, cause my pride is getting in the way & I know i'm right, & how the statement that girls are always right, BULLSHIT! FUCK i'm gonna be that fucking example for proving that shit wrong.

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That felt fucking awesome. Now just to do it in people's fucking faces.

Another nighttime ride on the bike. Can't wait to visit EVHS on Friday.

Measuring Up

2009-05-05T23:26:00.000-07:00

Proverbs 14:1

i believe, but somewhere around there it talks that "A fool believes that there is no God."

Tuesday

What do i have to say? Most def a chill day, i haven't had this much fun what so ever these past few days.

Cinco De Mayo party was fun. Fail at bio. The Cocoon for health is pretty damn epic. Study Hall was dumbass funny,

like seriously, fucking hilarious. "Oh no!" hahhaha. Lost my pikes. Zayum, i farted on your face, now your gonna get pinkeye.

Aced my Geo test, raised it from an F to an A, school's fucking easy, just fuck the people in it. I'm afraid.

& damn do i regret doing that, there's that weird ass awkwardness no matter how much you want to push it out of the way,

all in the moment type shit. Well it just seems like that, come on, where's that worth while shit? I've gone through more girls than

your fingers & my fingers combined. Like seriously

Wednesday 5/6/2009

Shit hasnt happened yet, but let's blog about it anyway. Mix & Match Day, another day where imma get fucking annoyed, another day

that imma regret & feel disappointed at myself, & another day that imma gonna think if it's worth my time, again, yet again. Oh! & meetup at Balboa,

gonna get $150, half way towards my bag. I want more stickers, & someone to talk to at night.

Ohhh Karl shut up, you rely to much on people

Ripped Jeans

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"Your companions are like buttons on an elevator - they either bring you up or bring you down."

I really like that quote cause it's really true.

Recap from Thursday. Fail SF rendezvous

Woke up early that morning. Headed out to Mountain View for school. Flower Project was pretty fun.

Collected 30 flowers. i need 15 more. After it hit 11:15 i decided to call it quits and head home. Headed home then to SF.

Pretty wack really cause of the misunderstanding. Forgive & forget. Chill really, tested some shots inside the mall & around

downtown. Read some interesting things in Borders though, & i think i'll consider reading as a hobby now, i fell in love with it again.

Headed home after 5 hours in borders & just chilled at home.

Friday 4/24/09 the BBQ

Early morning again. Left the house around 11 & took the 11 30 train to mtn view. Took the VTA to Great Mall, took the 71 to Eastridge & then

the 39 to EVHS (Evergreen high school). Went all the way from home to visit Jansen, ha it was pretty cool, & just chilled, met Vy & Catherine, & some other people i forgot. We talked hella shit about ratface & wanted to kick his ass. Ha. Jansen's mom picked us up & we rendezvoused with erika in the van. Headed

to Jansen's home, ate chicken & some fried chicken. Left for Jansen's Ortho appointment, hella quick. "What color?' "Teal" We then dropped off

Erika at her house & then finally arrived at Jonathan's. No need to name all of em but it was the usual i saw at the Barbeque, chilled with Eric, Jimmy, & Alex though & taught me a few things about a fixie. Honestly my first time riding a fixie my size, i learned how to skid & sit skid all on the first day. Later on Jimmy & I went to pick up Kenny at Golfland, headed back, blah blah blah, just chillin and shit, then we Andrew had to leave so we did a little photoshoot at a park near Jon's. Went back & did a small break sesh. Fail at the sleepover. My Dad picked me up & everything was all good. Hyped.

Saturday : Fixie Building

Slept at 12 & woke up at 7 and couldn't sleep. Got ready around 9 ish & left the house around 9 30 to be at the mall around 10, went to borders to kill some time to wait for Sean, met at Rasputen around 11 & went to Performance first. Picked up the starbolt tool, spacers, & my front tire. Then headed to freewheel to exchange my cog & pick up some lube & rim tape. Then headed to Bike rev to pick up toshi straps & plastic toeclips, then my cap for the fork. Sean had to stop by Tim's to drop off the frame & such, we decided to eat but stopped by another freewheel to get the cups in for Tim's Frame. Headed to this Cafe, forgot the name but Tim's bro, treated me out, thanks bro. 3 pancakes, hashbrown, & a sausage, yum. Then headed out to OSH to buy some steel wool & brushes to paint the frame. Back to my house. Stripped, Rinsed, stripped, etc, primed, coated, painted, sandpapered. Then built. Bike was done around 9 & we wanted to eat Phu but my parents wouldn't let me go out, whatever really. Night time rides for the win.

check cirocksf.blogspot.com for the pictures of the process.

Sunday. SkatexBike Sesh.

Another early morning, i hate this cold weather really. Vacuummed the house & washed the clothes before i left around 12. Parents wouldnt let me

leave without a helmet, lights, & a lock, so we bought everything. Pretty happy really. Headed to Fernando & just practiced & just watched everyone play Skate. Jazer, James, Renjie, Gabe, Clinton, Shelbie, Jody, Kirk, Prince, Mikey, John, Anthony, Paulo, & John. Hella people. We then decided to leave

to go head to Ben but 3 of all those people we didn't want them to tag along, so we made it seem like we're all heading out. Met near Ocean Grove and went down near Westlake. After at Ben, we decided to eat, Clinton, Shelbie, & I at 88 rice bowl. 4 spam wasubi's & a chocolate oreo smoothie. Met 3 new skaters, then shit started happening. When we arrived at Ben, a fast forward a bit but Shelbie & this girl got in a fight over John, who is Shelbie's ex. Popos came and everyone headed out, Renjie & i with John decided to go home, took the 120 to Daly City Bart & said our farewells there. Lonely night though. Thanks Catherine for keeping me company.

Monday though

First day to school with the bike, pretty cool, have to wake up at 6 30 everyday now though. Today was damn pretty chill though. Lips hurt like fuck,

nothing new really except the sameold same old, 4 weeks till finals. FUCK. Time to just fucking get off my lazy ass.

My lips hurt like no other, & i know the only thing will heal this is vaseline

which i don't have, almost never have it & i know it's the only thing that'll work

i smile, but it hurts.

Tuesday

Regular school shit.

Came home & Rode with Greg & Jon B. that day, didnt come back until 10 at night.

Dtn Burlingame up to the Phu up in Westborough square. Near Kabameshe.

Pretty sick, chill ride.

Wednesday

Missed my train in the morning, Got pissed, took it out on Mr.Barraro, sorry dude. Day was pretty weird after.

I have 2 gigs to do, sacrificing going to Angelica's 17th birthday to take pictures & get payed. & i'm gonna be doing an

8th grade body/jump shoot. I guess thats all i have to say.

Thursday 4/30/09

Day before my birthday, nothing special, school again. More of a realization day. Riding & Practicing really. Need to start breaking.

Fuck my school & the people in it, fuck people who hate & can't keep their mouth shut. Fuck you for doing shit to my bike.

Friday: Birthday

Wasnt really excited, just wanted everything to be chill. To much attention at school, none of that please. Skipped 9th period

to head to MHS, nice seeing familiar faces again. Headed to the pines to Steven's House after. Went over to Rowena's. Got dropped off to

Great Mall, walked around, chilled, met up with people. Turning point of my day really.

"That's why i got a fixie, it was just something to do to keep my head off things."

"Ha, that's why i got a fixie, to get my mind off things that bother me.

Whatever happened to us being like brothers?"

"We still are, don't worry, i haven't lost any respect for you."

"Bokeh..."

After that, Catherine & Kate showed up, went inside & decided to watch Obsessed, and did the title really explain that damn movie, pretty epic.

After the movie, some had to leave cause of work, or they just had to go home. What's going through my mind? Ha.

Outback Steakhouse headed. Had to wait a while to get seated, ended up to be a good night, our server rode a fixie which was pretty cool.

Aussie Cheese Fries, damn hella. Not that many pictures, it was a good chill night. Thanks for those who made it & stayed, i really appreciate it.

"So i guess that's the reason why you head down here a lot.?"

"Pretty much."

I fail at taking pictures, i know. I seriously have no motivation, & most of these pictures were taking by friends.

Saturday

Slept over Matt's, picked up Catherine at her house. SF bound. My house to get ready. Showered, then headed to SF, Haight to be exact. The

same ol sam ol stores. Then headed to Forever 21, Urban Outfitters, then to Huf, fail at buying something for Catherine's friend. Then back to the mall. Stopped by Coldstone to get my Milk & Cookies shake with a scoop of Coffee ice cream, just enough to keep me awake. We decided to watch The Soloist, pretty good movie, never knew it was based on a true story. I wish i was that talented with music. Prime. After the movie, went downstairs to take Bart, barted to Milbrae & walked home since parents were being filipino & were singing karaoke after the Pacquiao Fight. Ha those midnight strolls. Arrived at my house. Parents didnt come home till late 1-2 A.M. Goodnight.

Sunday 5/3/09

Woke up, got ready, chilled, took pictures before she left, dropped Catherine back home. Slept throughout the whole day. Pretty much it, boring old sunday, Dad got mad & kicked my bathroom door, & broke it. FUCK. He really doesn't have to get mad. -.- Maybe that's where i get my such short temper from. People just seem to annoy the fuck out of me. Conversed the night away.

Today, Monday 5/4/09

Dear Reader,

I hate waking up in the morning choosing what i have to wear. It pisses me off. I need new jeans, like seriously. My nudies are doing me no good.

I love seeing when i have a whole stack of white t-shirts in my closet, & to see my sock drawer is filled with new comfy socks. Makes my morning

since no one seems to greet me on the daily grind. The shower seemed to tempt me to stay in today, the warmth caressed me, i pushed it away.

I left my house late, good thing i have a bike. I fell before i even left my frontyard though. Stupid hole. It seems pedaling doesn't take so much energy

anymore, enough sleep & energy? or did i just get used to it, cause my seat just seemed to not hurt my butt anymore. I forgot to ask my parents for

money for my monthly caltrain ticket today. Which fucked me over today. Missed my daily routined train, good way to make the morning.

Got showed up. Got on the train, a few stops, the guy sitting in front of me forgot this small bag, before he got off, i handed it to him, at least i know

i made someones day. Got off at Mtn View & rode to school, came exactly at the beginning of 2nd period. Throughout the day, being annoyed seemed like the only thing i could feel. 5th period, just practiced on my bike really. Cut it by short & showed Megan my new photos. Ate my lunch early, happy that no one that annoyed me approached me by my lonesome, funny how i'm feeling that way towards my closest friends. The day progresses, Erin & I talked,

sprung? hahaha, not even, just overexpressing my feelings. I got to say Health was pretty trippy, The Cocoon, haha. The afternoon seemed to be most relaxing. I feel accomplished for raising my Geo grade to an F to an A in one day LMFAO! " Just as useful as a hen with teeth" I forgot what Mrs.Mackey's quote was today but it was a warning to do something bad & later on that you can't take back. After school was bleh. Riding around again, 4:58 bound to Milbrae, got kicked off the train cause my stupid self forgot to buy a monthly ticket., landed at Hillsdale & rode to Burlingame. Not that far but i averaged out

my speed throughout the whole time. Got spit at by some Hispanic, when he was at a stoplight, skidded a flick off calling him a dick. Made myself feel so damn good. FUCK HATERS. Karma is a fucking bitch. Before home, went around downtown Burlingame & stopped by that bike shop on California.

Bought a Jarritos right before i landed home. Now i'm here, blogging the shit out of my mind, resting up, & about to ride again to get rid of these remnant thoughts. Tell me, i like you, but are you really worth my time? I really want to know. Well, a nighttime ride is my remedy for right now.

"I got a fixie cause it was just something to do to get my mind off things

& i know i'll ride my bike more than any girl i will be with."

Things to Do & Buy

-8th Grade Jump/Grad shoot

-May 16th Party Gig

-Endowment Fund Essay

-English Assignment of Modernizing a Bible Parable

-Bio Parent Bird WKS

-Religion Ls10 WKS

-Study for 3 test this week

-Confirm SD trip by May 17th, if so, buy ticket

-Buy HufxIncase collab messenger bag

-Buy some new Jeans, Cure Fit APCs sz27 or 28 (cause they stretch like hell) & SelfedgexIronHearts

-Those all leather Van Chukkas sz8.5 or 9

-More stickers for my bike

-Karl Nikolai Orotea, GET OFF YOUR MOTHERFUCKING ASS & GET MOTIVATED TO TAKE PICTURES. GAHH DAMNIT

- Upload pictures for Monday.